Right now I am here...
In less than one month I will be here...
(image from Wikipedia)
Sunday was officially the one month mark for my departure to Guatemala for language school on August 15th. Today (Monday), I woke up and had my first "what the heck am I doing?" moment. It was one thing on Sunday to say to myself "I'm leaving in one month," but as I was brushing my teeth this morning I though to myself "I'm leaving in LESS THAN one month" and the LESS THAN seemed much more intimidating.
So, I immediately snapped into "I'm moving to another country for 27 months in less than one month mode" and I tried to make a list of things that I need to accomplish in less than a month. It looks something like this: 1)finish cleaning room (I've been sorting through everything I've ever owned and getting rid of anything that I'm not taking with me and I won't want when I get back), 2)fundraise, 3)go shopping for random items such as clothes, tennis shoes, a mosquito net, a travel alarm clock that will actually wake me up, LUGGAGE (you would think that someone who in the last four years has travelled to Nicaragua twice, Italy, Costa Rica, and Spain, I would own my own luggage, but I don't, I usually just borrow my parents), 4)fundraise, 5)say goodbye to friends and family, 6)fundraise. Ok, so the list isn't actually that bad, although a side-effect of "I'm moving to another country for 27 months in less than one month mode" is always thinking "I must be forgetting something." In fact, if I had to leave in a week I'm confident I could get everything done with the exception of fundraising. So, I took a deep breath and decided I should wait to freak out until I reach "I'm moving to another country for 27 months in less than two weeks mode" or "I'm moving to another country for 27 months in the morning and it's 1AM and I still haven't finished packing mode" (which will inevitably happen, I know because I've experienced "I'm leaving for a mission trip to Nicaragua in the morning and it's 1AM and I still haven't finished packing mode," "I'm leaving for college in the morning and it's 1AM and I still haven't finished packing mode,"and "I'm leaving to study in Italy/Spain in the morning and it's 1AM and I still haven't finished packing mode."
So, if any of you were wondering what it feels like to be moving out of the country in less than one month this is how it feels, "what the heck am I doing?," "I'm not ready," "I can totally do this," "Jesus I trust in you, Jesus I trust in you, Jesus I trust in you," "I am so going to rock my last month at home," "I'M ABOUT TO HAVE THE EXPERIENCE OF A LIFETIME AND IT'S GOING TO BE AWESOME!!!"
I think that random rambling blog posts are also a side effect of "I'm moving to another country for 27 months in less than one month mode."
